Saturday, August 25, 2007

thoughts

It's late again... or is 3:15 a.m. super-early? We did Picnic with the Pops tonight, and I fell asleep while singing "tie it in a knock" to Lauren Clay when we got home. I woke up to milk in the fridge, thanks to John. I needed it to bake the cake Mel and I are serving at a shower we're hosting tomorrow, and I didn't realize I needed milk for the recipe until Lauren Clay was asleep this afternoon. She didn't wake up until we were pulling into our parking place at Pops, so I didn't have a chance to get any. I am now waiting for the cake to finish baking so I can go back to bed. Blogging will keep me from falling asleep and burning the cake.

I have some fun pictures from tonight's Pops. Our theme was Singing Bee, and the silly headbands are supposed to be antennae. The best scenes weren't captured on film, unfortunately. Those were:
-when Lauren Clay joined her aunt Jeana and Uncle Robin to walk over and meet Patrick the horse who'd wandered with his owner to the edge of the pops tables.
-when Lauren Clay decided she'd had enough with her clothes and stripped down to her shoes. Thankfully, it was pitch black outside at that point, but it was still not appropriate! We had to put up a fight to at least get a diaper back on her so she could jump rope (which was made from those glow-in-the-dark necklaces) with Conner.

Conner's doing forward rolls now, and Lauren Clay tried her hardest to do one, too. She did them well with help, but didn't do a bad job of rolling on her own. She was not ready to leave the excitement when we headed out a little after intermission (just after 10 pm.) I would have liked to have stayed until the end, too, but I was having a hard time getting my pregnant belly into a comfortable position, and-- although Ty was positioned on my bladder-- I did not want to use the porta-potties.

As I was mixing up the cake batter a little while ago, AIR1 ran a James Dobson radio spot on self esteem. It reminded me of something God placed on my heart a couple weeks ago while Lauren Clay and I were out for a morning walk:

I was praying for family, starting with John, then moving to Lauren Clay and Ty. I prayed that our children would have healthy self esteem and a good self image, but as I prayed that, I felt a tug on my heart and felt God's voice slow me down and redirect the prayer. What does it mean to have a good self image? The more I thought about it, the more I saw that "good self image" isn't God's intention for us. Any focus on self is unhealthy, or at least has the potential to be. We are healthiest when our gaze is set on our Creator and off of ourselves. And the best part of it is that God tells us He created us in His image. We learn to view ourselves as He intended as we build a relationship with Him. Healthy self image is not about me... it's losing me in who He is. So my prayer changed as God spoke that to my heart. I don't want good self esteem or self image for my kids. I pray that John and I can model what it means to be lost in His image. To walk in the promise that, at salvation, we were made perfect, and that God continues to make us holy. In HIS image.

Okay... the cake is done and I have GOT to get sleep!

2 comments:

kitzkazventure said...

Ugh, I never had a comment disappear before but poof it was gone. Anyway, I totally agree with you on the SE thing. I keep reading all this stuff about teaching your adopted child about his culture and heritage and we will because we are proud that he is different and that he is Kazakh. But.... the fact that God ordained his birth and has a purpose for him, that God orchestrated his early birth, kept him healthy, and directed his path to us is much more fulfilling and amazing than the fact that his peeps are a tribe of horseman that had many trials over the centuries....know what I mean? :)Happy Weekend,Karen

uhlsfam said...

ah ha - so very good, so very good. and you were incorrect my dear - it did bring tears to my eyes because you were perceptive enough to realize when God was teaching you something. i sometimes get caught up in other things to take the time to hear that still, quiet voice - but isn't that what we need on a daily basis??? thank you for sharing your heart.